Little Red House

I was born in Los Angeles. I remember visiting the city almost every weekend. I remember being surrounded by soo many people. People I knew, and people I’ve never seen in my life. Where I lived wasn’t safe. We lived in and through some of the toughest areas in LA. Areas that no kid should ever have to live through. Which is why we moved to Green Bay, WI. Home of the Green Bay Packers… lol

From Green Bay, we moved 45 mins to a super small town called Gillett, Wisconsin, population of just a little over 3000. Not only was it hard to adjust to a small town, we had to adjust being the only house on the block. I was no longer surrounded by people, but rather of open fields and woods. Giant trees stood guard in front and behind our house. Fall made these trees look unbelievably pretty! Sometimes I couldn’t tell if it was the sun shining or the reflection of the leaves that painted a bright yellowish color in our house. The leaves flooded our backyard, they were fun up until we had to rake them all!! My family and I, a family of 7 kids and my parents lived in an older-two-story-reddish-brick-house. I wish I knew how many acres we had total, but I cannot remember. I loved that I finally had my own room, and that we actually lived in a house big enough for the entire family. The kitchen was pretty big, which was awesome for the holidays, birthdays, graduations, and, well, party’s in general! Our dining area was so big too, with giant windows overlooking our field and wooded area! I remember sitting by the window looking at the snow covered trees! They reminded me of white chocolate covered pretzels! Lol >.< My room was so big! I could fit my own bed and a dresser! Lol It was a big deal for me, considering our old house back in LA, I used to room with my two older brothers. We used to sleep on a bunk bed. My older brothers on the top, and I on the bottom (I fell once or twice. Lol). My bedroom was my bedroom now. My favorite color was green, so can you guess what color I painted my room? I did a soft pastel green, with black décor, and my Aladdin cover. Lol Hey, I was 12 at the time!! 🙂

Life seemed good for a while, until it started hitting me, this town is toooo small for me, but I LOVE my new house! 🙂 It just wasn’t enough for me. I moved out, and back to Green Bay when I was 17 years old. I couldn’t let go of the city life…

Once was lost, but now I’m found.

All of the sudden, I look at my wrist and realize I didn’t put my watch on this morning?! I pretty much usually go almost everywhere with this watch. It holds so much sentimental value to me; my (now) husband used this as an engagement ring. 🙂

One day, while at work, I realized I didn’t have my watch on. Thinking I left it where I typically always do, I didn’t think too much of it. After work, I went straight to the “spot” and it was NOT there! Assuming I left it in my husbands car, after our workout at the gym the night before, I looked all over his vehicle with absolutely no luck. THIS was where my heart started pounding so hard, I felt it was going to jump out of my chest!

I told my husband about it, and not only did he laugh, but we both spent 2 hours looking for my watch! I felt so angry, depressed, hopeless, but at the same time, I felt determined, optimistic, and refuse to go to bed without that watch! I felt horrible, because this watch meant so much to me, AS well as for  my husband… and it was gone.

My house looked like a tornado, tsunami, and earthquake combined in one. I’ve never felt so determined about something as I was searching desperately for that watch. I thought so hard, that my head was aching, on where I possibly could have placed it. But nothing came to mind… Everything around me was nothing but a blur  and such a disaster.

When all the sudden, my husband, nonchalant, came into the room and was like here it is. My heart almost jumped out of my chest! I could NOT believe it was found!! I looked everywhere! Well, at least I thought I did?!

He said, ” I forgot I put it in one of the drawers. You had taken it off one day when you were washing dishes, and I put it in the drawer for you. 🙂 ” Although I don’t know why he put it in the drawer, other than maybe to play a prank on me to see how long I’d notice it’s missing ((Yes, he’s done that before)). I think he forgot it was in there, so that’s why he couldn’t find it either! 🙂

I’m NOT a materialistic person. But when I’m given a gift with true meaning, I take it to heart. This watch isn’t just a watch. My husband took the time to find something he knew I’d like.

You set my soul free…

” What is forgiveness? Forgiveness is not about letting the other person off the hook. Forgiveness is letting it go and giving it to Christ so YOU can be free. You may not realize it, but without forgiveness you feel anger, resentment, trust issues, you have issues with the people around you, and much more. I’ve heard a lot of people say I can’t ever forgive this person because they did this/that. If you only knew the freedom you feel when you forgive someone. The merciful…will be shown mercy.”

When you forgive someone, it doesn’t mean you’ll forget, it just means it won’t hurt as much as it once did. It’s not easy to forgive someone for what they did, but it feels so much better when you let it go. You feel a sense of freedom, the air feels and tastes so much fresher, you’re no longer carrying a weight on your back, and you can see clearly.

Untouched

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The anticipation is killing me. Getting on the plane was all I longed for, and the thought of falling asleep for eight hours, before waking up the next morning, was simply dreadful! Before October 11th, 2013, there was a place in my heart that was untouched. A place I didn’t know existed, until I stepped foot off the bus upon arriving in Venice, Italy. Could it be? Am I really here?? Is this dream finally a reality, and no longer a movie playing in my mind?

The atmosphere, the people, the turquoise water, the birds, Oooh the food!! It is so unreal! The colors, the fine breeze, the music, the art, the clothing, the architecture, need I say more?! Simply breath taking! This is all coming from a girl who lives in a city with a population of 100k, who’s culture revolves on nothing but our football team. This was a trip that won a piece of my heart. 1 of 3 cities visited on my trip to Europe, which made an everlasting imprint in my life.

So, you ask what place I would go to right now?

Venice, Italy.

One of many pictures taken on this trip is attached for you to see…